mercoledì 7 settembre 2011

For everything.

Here's to the nights that turned to mornings & to the friends that turned to family.

For getting drunk with me, with one single beer, for saying that i am beautiful when i feel useless, for call me to say something and forget what you want to say, for telling me all the shit you did, for make me always smile, for every time we go out, for every stupid joke that i said and you laugh, for that time when you eat on street,  for trying to teach me how to swim, for listen all the shit i did with all these stupid girl who believed me, for helping me to keep calm when i have to go out with the girl i like.
For all these thing that you do for me sincerely THANK YOU.

Yeah and for you trying to make me a lady i mean trying to teach me how a lady walk, dress and speak. Yes thank you even if i will never  be that way.

- I want you to know that you deserve the best damn thing in this world, and not because you mean so much to me, because you're amazing the way you are.

- Stay the same, i love you.

Dear mommy

- What you know about love ? Tell me.. nobody look at you the  way she look at me, no one kiss you the way she kiss me, no one tell you all that beautiful words that she tell to me. How can you tell that isn't love, when you don't know what love is. Tell me how can you say this is wrong when that is the only thing that make you daughter happy, that make me smile. I tell you is is not wrong, is not is the best damn thing that could happen to me, and i won't let you ruin this just because you have no idea how is to love someone. " I love her, with my entire heart, with every breath i take i miss his arms around me and if you can't understand that she's the one who make me so happy i am truly sorry".

 I always think that you will love me the same even if i do stupid things, i don't say that being gay is a stupid thing.. just well i think that you will accept that. I used to think that no matter what i am, what i do i will always be your baby. Maybe you don't know.. the way i  fell i am not that type who get upset and cry but it hurt me, even if you will never know. But sincerly i don't care if you love me now the same or if you're disappointed, i am who i wanna be and i am proud of being gay.

  And for all the homophobic out there, you all can suck my dick, even if i don't have one.

mercoledì 27 luglio 2011

I love you this much.

So, please, just be patient. I'm so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I'm this strong girl who can get through anything, but inside I'm very fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.

It's not just physical attraction. I love you for every single thing that you are. Every words you say, every step you take. This is something that will never die.

I will fight forever.

Want to stop fighting. I want so much to stop this. I want to fight for you, not against you. I want you to want me and I want love. But it’s far too late for that now isn’t it? At most, I hope you will be happy. Wherever you are. Whoever you’re with. Whatever you’re doing.


I'm a lover and a fighter. I get angry easily, but I'm working on it. I party, sleep, and think too much, but I get my shit done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries. I don't let many people in, but once they're in, they're there forever

domenica 24 luglio 2011

And this is for you ♥

You're that type of person who can make me smile, who can make my bad days get better. ♥ I have to thank you for all the advice, for all the quotes you tagg me on,for every smile you bring on my face, for our stupid * uhuhuh*, for our passion for 'sex bomb/bum' for all the shit we talk about, for being part of my life and make me stay strong.

- I hate when you're sad, i'd die to see you pretty eyes crying, i hate when you feel like you're

 useless and i can't be there to prove you're not. Just remember it  you're amazing, gorgeous,

interesting and no boy/girl deserve your tears.

So i want you to promise me that you will e always with a big smile on face because baby 

you're all i have,  you worth everything's good in the world. 

- Just look how beautiful and innocent you are, i know you're not so innocent but you look

 like one, i mean you seem a kid, and i love you so much.

It hurt that you're not here, and i feel weak when i can't help you.

P.S - don't forget to keep always your smile on face.

martedì 19 luglio 2011

I'm about to vomit.

When the world has become a place so disgusting? I mean i see everyday people who say ' i love you' and don't mean a shit, person cry, suffer, and say I love you when you're just a fun or maybe they are afraid that they will not find another one. People i don't really understand you , you all make me sick, i always say that maybe i'm just a fool or an alien or something like. This world disgust me, make me wanna vomit, all this gossip, ugly words, people who talk and talk about you without knowin' a hell. I'd like to go somewhere far far away far from this shit,  far from this people, far from this place. Who would not like?
hmm yeah let's see.. " I love you " in this days don't mean a shit, " i will never hurt you" biggest lie, " i need you" well not because i really need you just i feel lonely in this moment, "i can't live without you" without me ? prove to live without oxygen, " im in love with you"  the truth is that im not in love just i dont know what to do and i just say it, " i don't mean to let you down" yeah yeah i'm sure about it and bla bla that's all words but how about proves ?
World is bullshit and then they say to me to love sincerly, yes i love but if i don't have someone to love, i tell you amigo you don't have, this world is full of sluts, stupid kids who don't know what they want, players and that's all. There's nothing out there for you kid, nothing for a good soul like you.