mercoledì 7 settembre 2011

For everything.

Here's to the nights that turned to mornings & to the friends that turned to family.

For getting drunk with me, with one single beer, for saying that i am beautiful when i feel useless, for call me to say something and forget what you want to say, for telling me all the shit you did, for make me always smile, for every time we go out, for every stupid joke that i said and you laugh, for that time when you eat on street,  for trying to teach me how to swim, for listen all the shit i did with all these stupid girl who believed me, for helping me to keep calm when i have to go out with the girl i like.
For all these thing that you do for me sincerely THANK YOU.

Yeah and for you trying to make me a lady i mean trying to teach me how a lady walk, dress and speak. Yes thank you even if i will never  be that way.

- I want you to know that you deserve the best damn thing in this world, and not because you mean so much to me, because you're amazing the way you are.

- Stay the same, i love you.

Dear mommy

- What you know about love ? Tell me.. nobody look at you the  way she look at me, no one kiss you the way she kiss me, no one tell you all that beautiful words that she tell to me. How can you tell that isn't love, when you don't know what love is. Tell me how can you say this is wrong when that is the only thing that make you daughter happy, that make me smile. I tell you is is not wrong, is not is the best damn thing that could happen to me, and i won't let you ruin this just because you have no idea how is to love someone. " I love her, with my entire heart, with every breath i take i miss his arms around me and if you can't understand that she's the one who make me so happy i am truly sorry".

 I always think that you will love me the same even if i do stupid things, i don't say that being gay is a stupid thing.. just well i think that you will accept that. I used to think that no matter what i am, what i do i will always be your baby. Maybe you don't know.. the way i  fell i am not that type who get upset and cry but it hurt me, even if you will never know. But sincerly i don't care if you love me now the same or if you're disappointed, i am who i wanna be and i am proud of being gay.

  And for all the homophobic out there, you all can suck my dick, even if i don't have one.

mercoledì 27 luglio 2011

I love you this much.

So, please, just be patient. I'm so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I'm this strong girl who can get through anything, but inside I'm very fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.

It's not just physical attraction. I love you for every single thing that you are. Every words you say, every step you take. This is something that will never die.

I will fight forever.

Want to stop fighting. I want so much to stop this. I want to fight for you, not against you. I want you to want me and I want love. But it’s far too late for that now isn’t it? At most, I hope you will be happy. Wherever you are. Whoever you’re with. Whatever you’re doing.


I'm a lover and a fighter. I get angry easily, but I'm working on it. I party, sleep, and think too much, but I get my shit done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries. I don't let many people in, but once they're in, they're there forever

domenica 24 luglio 2011

And this is for you ♥

You're that type of person who can make me smile, who can make my bad days get better. ♥ I have to thank you for all the advice, for all the quotes you tagg me on,for every smile you bring on my face, for our stupid * uhuhuh*, for our passion for 'sex bomb/bum' for all the shit we talk about, for being part of my life and make me stay strong.

- I hate when you're sad, i'd die to see you pretty eyes crying, i hate when you feel like you're

 useless and i can't be there to prove you're not. Just remember it  you're amazing, gorgeous,

interesting and no boy/girl deserve your tears.

So i want you to promise me that you will e always with a big smile on face because baby 

you're all i have,  you worth everything's good in the world. 

- Just look how beautiful and innocent you are, i know you're not so innocent but you look

 like one, i mean you seem a kid, and i love you so much.

It hurt that you're not here, and i feel weak when i can't help you.

P.S - don't forget to keep always your smile on face.

martedì 19 luglio 2011

I'm about to vomit.

When the world has become a place so disgusting? I mean i see everyday people who say ' i love you' and don't mean a shit, person cry, suffer, and say I love you when you're just a fun or maybe they are afraid that they will not find another one. People i don't really understand you , you all make me sick, i always say that maybe i'm just a fool or an alien or something like. This world disgust me, make me wanna vomit, all this gossip, ugly words, people who talk and talk about you without knowin' a hell. I'd like to go somewhere far far away far from this shit,  far from this people, far from this place. Who would not like?
hmm yeah let's see.. " I love you " in this days don't mean a shit, " i will never hurt you" biggest lie, " i need you" well not because i really need you just i feel lonely in this moment, "i can't live without you" without me ? prove to live without oxygen, " im in love with you"  the truth is that im not in love just i dont know what to do and i just say it, " i don't mean to let you down" yeah yeah i'm sure about it and bla bla that's all words but how about proves ?
World is bullshit and then they say to me to love sincerly, yes i love but if i don't have someone to love, i tell you amigo you don't have, this world is full of sluts, stupid kids who don't know what they want, players and that's all. There's nothing out there for you kid, nothing for a good soul like you.

lunedì 27 giugno 2011

Mie dor..

Mie dor frate, mie dor de toate noptiile albe, de mana ta, de fata ta de copil, de corpul tau micut, de inima ta pura, de zambetul tau, sa te enervez cand vorbesti la telefon, sa imi furi tigarile, sa ne prefacem Lady impreuna, sa adormim zambind, sa te tin in brate, sa ma strangi de mana cand tie frica, sa ma privesti cu dragoste, sa imi spui 'te iubesc' in cele mai proaste momente, sa ma linistesti dupa o cearta, sa te invelesc dupa ce adormi, sa ne uitam la telenovele impreuna, sa ne certam pentru inchetata, sa gatim impreuna, sa stai cu orele in baie, sa ma trezesc langa tine, sa te cuprind in noptiile fara stele, sa ne uitam la stele impreuna, sa vorbim despre viitor la masa din bucatarie in timp ce mancam biscuiti, sa fi mereu nemultumita de parul tau, sa ma indragostesc de tine din nou in fiecare zi, sa te ating, sa te sarut, sa iti simt respiratia, sa te rusinezi, sa imi trimiti mesaje tampite noaptea, sa ma suni de dimineata sa imi spui ' te iubesc' si apoi sa inchizi, sa te pierd in pat, mie dor de degetele tale care se potriveau perfect cu ale mele, de gandurile tale, de rasul tau inocent, de fata ta de dimineata, sa bei apa in fiecare noaptea, sa sari peste mine in pat si sa nu simt pentru ca esti slaba, sa te oftici ca sunt nesimtita, sa ma lovesti si sa te simti slaba pentru ca nu reactionez, sa plangi in bratele mele, sa iti fiu alaturi, sa iesim noaptea din casa, sa fi geloasa, sa fi a mea, sa dansezi, sa canti, sa tipi cat de mult ma adori, sa ma iubesti, sa te privesc visand cu ochi deschisi, sa iti ascult gandurile, sa te iert cand gresesti, sa te vad emotionata, sa te simti ' not enough'  cand defapt esti prea buna, sa fi nervoasa, sa nu imi vorbesti, sa te strambi, sa fiu eu pe primul loc, sa te fac sa zambesti, sa plangi de fericire, sa tipi uneori, sa fim bete impreuna, sa plangem impreuna cand suntem fumate, sa imi dai nume la sani, de firea ta calma, de cum ma ajutai sa nu imi fac rau singura, de cum ma tineai, de cum sarutai, ma atingeai, ma cuprindeai, ma iubeai, ma pur si simplu faceai sa simt ca sunt cea mai buna, sa fiu mereu fericita, multumita, implinita, sa ma simt pe masura, sa intarzi cand ieseam, sa te privesc cum dormi, privirea ta care spunea multe, sa facem dus impreuna, de primul loc in care te-am sarutat, de prima atingere, de scanteile din ochi tai, de clipele noastre, sa stam cu lumanari in baie, sa ne certam la cumparaturi, mie dor sa vorbim pana tarziu la telefon, sa ne plimbam de mana, sa ne certam pentru pc, sa iti fac poze, sa te desenez, sa spui ca sunt obsedata de tine, sa te privesc cu orele, sa te ascult cantand, sa te fac sa te simti femeie, de caracterul tau perfect, sa te privesc explicandu-mi ceva si la sfarsit sa nu inteleg nimic pentru ca eram fermecata, mie dor de prima data cand te-am vazut in rochie si m-am  indragostit din nou, sa ma surprinzi cu  cate ceva dar cel mai mult si mai mult imi lipsesti TU   fiind a mea.

giovedì 16 giugno 2011

I will never say Good-bye to us.

Ahhh, I dont know how to express what I feel, feel the thrill every time I remember us,why when is  talking about love  mention your name? What have you done to me? I'm so  stuck on you. I cant get you out although I tried..
If you say ' i love you' i will answer back ' i love you too' because is what i feel, you made me who I am with good and bad parts  and may regret the way we lost but never regret what we have. For you, little one was most special,more special than that could not, i have your name tattooed on my heart.

Hey you! Yes you, you need me as much as I need you ? Hey you! do you, remember us? always wondered what you think of when you hear my name, or what you think when your eyes meet mine. Hey you! Yes you, I meant as much as you meant for me? I was the reason of your smile? I was special? Please tell me that was true.

I swear in our quiet moments, I felt that even if the sky will fall, I will not care, because i had on you. In those moments you were the center of my universe, you were, I would sincerely like to beI can't forget what we have, was the huge size, the explosion of feelings and sensations that I had every time I touched you can't be expressed in words. You can compare with  the elixir of life and death goddess Kali, because you give me life  and  at the same time that killed me inside. You killed my soul can't feel anything for another girl.

There are person who tell me ' someday you will found a girl who make you cry as  you do with girls' and i answer 'no my dream girl is gone'

Honestly I miss you , and hurt so much, I want you to know that hurts, even I know that you don't  care. I remember the day last station, you began to cry like a child, you did not want me to go, either. I would have liked one more moment with you. Only 5 minutes to kiss and say i love and no matter what happened i will alway love you.

 I will never say Good-bye to us.

lunedì 13 giugno 2011

i love you.

But I' miss your arms around me

I wish you were here 
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here 
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I fucking love.

martedì 7 giugno 2011

sabato 4 giugno 2011

Sometimes I feel like no one cares. Sometimes I feel like no one is there. Sometimes I want to kill myself. Sometimes I think I need some help. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone. Sometimes I'm in an empty zone. Sometimes I feel like I'm not alive. Sometimes I wonder if I'm deprived. Sometimes I think the world should end. Sometimes I think I have no friends. Sometimes I want to make them see that sometimes 
I wish I wasn't me.

venerdì 3 giugno 2011


There's a girl that'll never talk to you because she's too shy'. There's a girl who's insecure. There's a girl who looks in the mirror and wonders what people are talking about. There's a girl who believes she isn't thin. There's a girl who believes she isn't beautiful. There's a girl who's always just the "best friend". There's a girl who's never good enough. There's a girl who's too mature. There's a girl with a broken smile. There's a girl that realized fairytales are never coming true. There's a girl who wonders what it's like to be pretty, to be wanted.

venerdì 27 maggio 2011

I feel like whatever i do is not enough.

I'm  not enough I don't care what they say. I tried to be the prettiest, the smartest, I tried to be strong, I tried to be everything you've  wanted But every time i remain alone with my mind,    every time I look in the mirror, I wanna scream  'you're not enough, you never was and you're never be ' . I feel like whatever I do, someone can do better.

 Sometimes i just want to write on my body.

you're not enough, you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough

you're not enough, you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough

you're not enough, you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough

you're not enough, you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough

you're not enough, you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough
you're not enough,you're not enough
you're not enough

But that will not change anything, i will still be not enough.